Long lost post loll

Hahahaha lets count on since when I never update my blog loll!

The last post was posted at December,2012 and now it's already May, 2013 omgg! 

I think the reason why exactly with now everyone is using smartphone instead of laptop for online lah haha

Haha since dad bought an iPad and our family member all using iPhone or Samsung, so I never use laptop for online don't even say blogging lol ! Sommore my lappie have some problem and I don't feel like wanna fixed it, so just let it be. Okay, no idea why suddenly write about "The reason why I din update my blog" LOL, that's not my topic of the post okay :/ Haha

This is gonna be a lil bit awkward, cos I don't really know what am I actually trying to blog about.

Having school holidays now because of the election will have in my school tomorrow, and tomorrow definitely a BIG DAY for every Malaysians. Honestly, before that I'm not so interested in politics, and don't even know who the politicians is actually justice and who else actually is the demon evil ! But now, I finally have some improvement, at least I know our government corrupt our money until might cause our country bankrupt or even more serious consequences ! So, tomorrow is a soooo important day to let us UBAH! So, please think wisely before, let's vote for a better future to our beloved Malaysia. 

Well, lets talk about myself...

I am now studying in form 6 and sit on UEC exam this year, It's really stress me out, even til now, already step in May, I'm still think of whether wanna continue my form 6 or not? I know shouldn't have this kind of thought in this moment, but I just can't control myself.. I think I can't effort the lessons, so that cause me no mood listen to what had teacher taught. I can't even get good results in every small test. I feel so sad and freaking frustrated. But I still tell myself, can't give up! Few months later it's all gone! there will be a better life! This is my motivation to study now..yes,it is.

Sometime, I think I can't be so close with anyone, I mean just maintain in normal friendship but not become best friend. Because I realize sometimes I'm stupid in get along well with someone. Sigh... I just hate having cold war with friends, especially the person is used to talk more with you. I just hope it won't happen again, I feel suffer live in those awkward atmosphere...

Alright, I think I'm gonna stop it. because life actually not that colorless lah!
Keep hang out with my lovely friends these few weeks lol, spent a lot of money FML
But yet, it's really so fun time with them, actually not so burning money lah, bacause sometimes we just find a place and gossiping haha! You know..girls being girls maaa :3

Here go some random pichas! :D

Yea with my beloved Saby and Jaye, spent my noon with them. 

And we keep girls gossip since we met each other of the day lol! haha

Random outfit lol

Recently me. Hi :D 

Dip-dyed my hair :D

Hey peeps, I'm coming up to update my blog. Honestly, I almost forgot that I actually own a blog.
For compensation, I promised myself must update the blog once a week, I mean, TRY MY BEST . UhHmm I think I'll regret I did this commitment :/
Okay, I'm regretted XD

Finally, can I just say with this word? FINALLY
MY MOTHERFUCKER' SPM HAD FOREVER EVER DISAPPEAR FROM MY LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Imma like WOW! Thinking about no more burned midnight oil to study the fuckshit subject, no more sejarah, no more guilty for wasted time, no more annoyed nag by parents to asked me study, no more everything that I dislike! You know? It just fucking NO MORE! OMGGGG! Even the SPM had passed for a few weeks but I'm still in the high mode atmosphere HAHAHA!
And thanks GOD I can totally enjoy my holiday now..!

For witness that I'm really happy with the coming of holiday, I decided to dye up my hair as usual heehee :D Before that, I'm very envy those girls can dip-dyed their hair, and I'm still sitting on SPM shit! I really hate the feel, was like GRRRRRrrrrr.. Finally now, it's the end of SPM, I decided to choose some special bright color but not the brown color, because I wanna to try something new. Yea right, I had chosen violet color. Yet, I really scare the color is too exaggerate so before I dyed, I've asked some opinion of my friends, and they give me some feedback is the violet color is really nice, and maybe suits me well. Without their kindly opinion, I'm already very interested in this hair color! This color finally ON to my hair heehee (:

At first, I wanna to dye my whole hair, but mommy suggested me not to dye whole hair, cos my hair will really get hurt badly. I am ok with her. And the first step is need to bleach up my hair. Mom choose some front part of my fringe and side hair to bleach. After I think.. almost half an hour, my hair slowly getting while(?) or yellow(?) color, it's time to wash it.

This is the outcome. HAHA I really look like a gangster loll! Mom said if the bleached color more white that's mean later the bright color will more colored on my hair. That's why my left sidehair will become more bright violet than the right side.

After that, the violet color was applied on the part of bleached hair. I felt very excited to see the results! HEEHEE

TAAADAAAA this is the outcome! It is violet+pink+brown on my hair!! The colors was really amazed me woww! The brown part of my hair is due to that was my own hair color that I had dyed last time. Finally, I dip dyed my hair whoaaaaaa!

 

Self-obsessed to the max buahaha! Because I really like my hair color so much ♥

 

Hair treatment is needed after did this color on my hair, but nowadays I realize that I very scared of washing my hair, because mom told me this kind of color will fade away in a short period ): I must take care of it properly.

That's all for my process about dipdyed my hair heehee. I'm just post it for fun :P You know girl are usually self-obsessed LOL #girlsbeinggirls

在家讀書真的很他媽的沒效率！

時候都不早了 可是睡意還很淺
腦子裡打轉著很多東西無處發洩
我想到這裡。

前幾天去考了Undang
聽說很容易 我信心滿滿 沒讀就去考

有些東西，真的不是想像中得那麼簡單

我很傻眼 那些題目真的很賤 超賤！
所以我失敗了

心情真的超低落 爸爸說 cheh還以為你厲害到哪裡去
我承認我真的很在意這句話 很在意很在意
然後第二天補考 為了能夠輕鬆及格我還熬夜讀
第二天，在練習室拼命做練習 沒想到小小的考試弄到我那麼恐懼
從早上十點做到中午兩點才去考 這次真的是拼了我的老命
如果SPM也有這種動力該有多好 :/
在作答時間快要結束之前 我的心真的跳到很快很快
那時候腦海閃過很多畫面：如果我再一次失敗了會怎麼樣？
我一定會被看死 然後成為笑話。
很怕很怕

LULUS
直到我看到這個字那時候要不是在考試室不能說話我想我一定喊出來
真的很激動心跳的很快！
哈哈我成功了:D

我真的很擔心我的SPM
UNDANG還可以重考 SPM就不是那麼容易了 ):
怎麼辦真的覺得自己很墮落 有心無力的感覺為什麼越來越重了
如果考不好我的前途就完蛋了我不想這樣
媽咪一直說 我沒有看過你拿書來讀咯是怎樣很有把握了是嗎 :|
我在想十年後的今天我一定後悔自己為什麼現在要這麼懶！
怎麼辦我真的很沒信心）：
在家讀書真的很他媽的沒效率
加油啦 樂韻 加油啦 HAIH

天氣他媽的熱 我他媽的煩

一大早 被自己的咳嗽聲吵醒，
一頭栽進枕頭里催眠自己繼續睡
算了 起床吧
順手拿了毛巾到浴室企圖淋走一身的疲憊
昨夜的電影確是很不錯換來的疲憊也算值得

關上了浴室門 聽見你們走了出來
嘟嘟囔囔著什麼真的沒聽清楚
牙膏擠滿了牙刷 你們的聲音越來越大
一聽 那麼小件事都可以拿來吵
你 們 很 吵。

洗完澡出來 你們還沒停止
在這種氣氛下有種隨時會輪到我遭殃的感覺
不出預料。
對 就是把怒氣發在我身上
莫名其妙大人就是這麼的莫名其妙。

我不喜歡這樣 請你對她好一點
一人少說一句吧 拜託
但你有時說話也真的很讓人很火大好像要找架吵

一整個早上的氣氛 低迷
我一說話 就有隨時中插的感覺
真的很無奈
所以 選擇沉默。

Take it as easy as you can

Yeaa short-term break almost a week after lot of fcukshit paper, annoyed indeed :/

Thanks god I've finally temporarily overcome thru it, This year, really a toughy year to every SPM candidates. 

Am I right? But some people really do enjoy on it I can't very sure about that hah!

I'm so glad that I back to my hometown and it is moon festival :D 

Means that I can celebrate w/ my family in this meaningful day, even ummm.. mooncake actually not so yumm I think, personally

And.. these day I found I've fall in a lil bit that we so called emo(?) ):
Just thinking that he gonna leave the school and I probably never met him after that, it's totally make my mood down, damn. down..

You know.. I already tried to do many things just do not leave out any regret in entire days, instead of my lifee ):
but not by doing confessions kay :/

I'm so glad he replied me, and praised on my singing.
Gosh!! I totally excited and like a happy kid jumped over here and there
He does not exclude to know me right? I guess.. 

Sometimes, I keep remind myself it's already enough for that, but idk why more and more than these that I want from him unconsciously.
Love lead people become greedy. so fuck. shitt!

Anyway, I just hope lastly we can be friend, and.. as long as you happy, sincerely.

我在寻找着自己。

考完預試了 終於
是要放鬆呢還是緊繃著 這個考試真的比以往有壓力多了
可見我以前都不怎麼把考試當一回事啊 這應該就是為什麼吧 :|

今天在Facebook看到這個
一看之下 我就中了 1, 2, 3, 9
我覺得如果我不是住宿舍的話，我應該會十項全中吧==
不行 這樣真的很不行。

你们又中了多少个呢？

坦白說這次考試我壓力到明明就讀完了心想可以睡了但是又不放心的爬起來看

明明這樣做根本就起不了什麼作用可是我就是會這樣做天啊是患上考試強迫症嗎

不知道是不是應該感謝我那很有時間觀念的生理時鐘嗎

因為在考試期間總是在一點半最多一點半就正 式 瓦 解。

不然我想應該是休想睡上一覺了 ==

可是考到中間的時候我又好像稍微失去了戰鬥能力

尤其是science 明明在開始前幾個星期前我都有一直看

可是考science的前一天完全就很不在狀況內

然後 當然 考得一塌糊塗。

Bookkeep嘉嫻老師說，預試的目的不是要看你的成績如何如何而是讓你了解如何進行準備功夫。

說真的在那之前我完全就很沒有頭緒到底要怎樣讀

現在雖然也沒有說完全掌握了但至少我知道我的讀書方式需要進行調整。

成績面對的也麻木了只希望不要太讓我無法接受就行了

最近 总是没道理的失落 失落些什么 真的很难说

朋友方面的尤其占最多

自己也要检讨 我怀疑 问题有没有可能出在自己的身上

如果是我的问题 我会努力改掉 会尽量去避免 

因为 我珍惜他们

有时候我在想，他们有没有在那么一点点的时刻检讨过自己

当说话伤害到别人 对方也沉默的时候 

会不会在在心里想：对就是他活该 还是会想 我会不会说得太过分了啊

我觉得前者居多吧 至少我在你们身上看到的是这样 

为了不让自己成为像你们这样的人 我一定要先从检讨自己做起

嗯最近看​​了一本書很有意思真的很喜歡

《回程》 藤井樹

人會把愛情弄得很美好，也會把它搞得很糟糕，

若當初不是那樣地結束，現在的我們，會是怎麼樣的呢？他計畫了一趟可能是他這輩子最重要，也最有意義的一次長途旅行，目的地，不是什麼國家，不是什麼縣市，也不是什麼地名。

而是一些人的心。

這趟旅行的起源，要從臉書開始講起。某天，在臉書上，他收到了一則交友訊息，來自多年前，曾經傷他很深的女友。她對他說，謝謝，對不起。然後他想起，自己也曾經傷害過別人，如果不能見到那些曾經被他傷害的人，親口說出一句對不起，那遺憾，會好深的。

於是，他決定出發，不管最後這趟旅程的終點，會是怎麼樣的結局。人生是一部很棒的電影，可惜不能倒帶，而且只播一遍。這一趟旅程，或許並不能讓他回到曾經愛過的那個時候，卻可以讓他在回程時細數，他到底得到了什麼。與其說這是一趟找人的旅行，不如說，他是在找自己。

旅行，開始！

推薦指數: ★★★★★
看了，真的懂了很多。
不是說要把自己想像成女主角，而是藤井樹的文字會讓任何一個人把自己套在裡面，進而對號入座。
這本書最厲害之處就是許多故事的線索不是靠著男主角說出口，而是把那些脈絡經過他的好朋友恆豪透露出來。
這樣的表達方式真合我意 既不會太做作也不會過於扭捏。




希望有我的人生也像程凱任一樣
有機會重新走一遍屬於自己的
回 程。

I Begged...

Fuck My Life!

I feel so sick right now. The trial exam is getting nearer, but I can't turn on my study mode extremely! I've try my best to study but it's doesn't work! Is it my problem? I can't even do the Maths by myself, didn't attend the maths extra class because of I really don't think like want to go back. 

Hell life!

Have to face the fuck shit test and a lot of things that's overwhelmed! I'M FEAR, indeed :/

I love the moment when spending the time with my buddies, they totally made my days.We can have a fun chat without any fuss.Honestly, I can't do that with some friends. Sorry for that but it is sincere from bottom of my heart. Sometimes, I can't really understand what you guys are thinking about? Especially you. I remember that I always shared my up and down to you, without any scruple.But now.. I can clearly feel that you always perfunctory me.No matter what I do you just give me a shit, even though you never say anything but I can feel it. It's really hurt me hard ):

Admit it, we seems like farther and farther. 

I miss us. seriously :')

Let's witness their happiness ♡

在很久以前，妈咪就已经告诉我今年是她跟爸爸结婚二十周年

我们要到Studio去拍全家照。

我听了 是真的很兴奋下的咯！哈哈 

因为以前有拍过，是个人的噢哈哈 

不过只是六年级生日的时候 妈咪刚好有一个配套 所以才有这个机会啦

印象中，那些姐姐都是会帮你化得很漂亮，然后也会提供一些衣服。

然后就要在镜头面前笑得很灿烂，而且还会教你摆pose噢 

所以就很期待啦 

然后差不多七月的时候啊 妈咪就跟我讲八月就要拍了 

我真的是吓到！因为真的很肥啊

然后，在一个星期之前我就积极开始运动了 是真的有运动噢

一放学得空我就去跑了 。我知道临时抱佛脚是没有什么效果的

其实我只是要自己良心好过点

这个假期，我也一直有跟妈咪去运动

能瘦到多少就多少了 TT

然后我们浩浩荡荡的去拍了

我一直在幻想自己会变到什么样子。因为我一直都很不喜欢化妆

觉得自己化了妆的样子更丑 很老 很不喜欢

开始做造型了 过程中我都很安静。
因为妈咪警告过我 不要多多comment 不然会越弄越丑
为了避免....  我还是安静点好了

Tadaaaaaaa! 这就是完成品啦

是不是看起来很老？TT

不过这次我蛮喜欢的，因为我的眼妆很漂亮。

眼睛变得超大的 O__O

其实那个化妆师帮我加了双眼皮贴，

因为自己本身也有双眼皮啊，我还在想她再贴的话，不是有两层双眼皮了

结果不会耶 很不错一下

我和姐姐的第一个造型。
很不一样的自己，很不一样的她。
共同点：肥。

               

因为没有经验，所以在全家人进去摄影棚的时候，我没有带到相机去拍到幕后
所以就完全没有拍到我们全家人。很遗憾一下
幸好第二次我学聪明了 :D

下面是第二个的造型，其实只有两个罢了啦
婚纱装

男帅女美 哈哈哈哈哈

以前一直觉得我酱矮，以后结婚后都不懂怎样穿婚纱

哈 现在也不错嘛 因为世界上有一种东西叫作 高 跟 鞋。:/

这张是爸爸拍的。好像摄影师拍的效果哦

很喜欢这张 ♡

轮到爸爸妈咪的时候，我们全部小孩子在后面看得很开心

因为以前他们拍结婚照的时候我们都还没出世

觉得能有机会看到这种画面很兴奋 哈哈

是不是很甜蜜叻?

以上全都是拍摄花絮，是我在后面偷拍的。

以前看到别人拍到很优美，觉得很爽

其实真的很累。我们从中午十二点拍到下午六点，真的是有够累的

我跟姐姐已经很不耐烦了，很想快点拍完快点脱下来

尤其是那个婚纱 又重又热又长！我真的因为传着高跟鞋踩到后面的裙摆跌了很多次

很鱼的咯，很多人看着 TT

经过这次 我真的很佩服那些新娘

可以穿一整天，还要到处敬酒

给你们一个赞 (Y)

这时候已经四点了，累得快要虚脱了

这是我自己用相机拍的 好像很专业酱 哈哈

最满意的一张 :D

婆婆那天好美，我觉得这身褂很适合她 

我的弟弟那天也不错帅啦，他一直叫我拍他，因为这是他第一次穿西装 。

看到这张照片，我真的觉得原来最像妈咪的人是他

妈咪，你那天真的很迷人 漂亮。

难怪他们说穿婚纱的女人最美 :D

我的爸爸也很帅嘛 

这个假期，真的很开心可以跟家人有这么棒的回忆

祝爸爸和妈咪结婚二十周年快乐。

还有很多个二十年我们这些孩子要一起见证你们的幸福哦 ♡